currently, working night shift with liting.

well, so much thoughts, so hard to digest.

some ladies, have no worries, because their lifetime partner are loaded. they do not have to worry about home stay, do not have to worry their 3 meals a day, and their household chores.

some ladies, have lesser worries, because they are living in their own house. what i mean here, means they just stay with their husband and kids. no other family members are staying with them. they are able to make their decisions, on wheather to send their kids to school, to which school, what food to eat, how to meddle with their home furniture and so forth.

well, some are better than others while some are not.

i just felt that just because of my age, people tend to label me. people tend to think that im not as capable. people tend to think that i have to follow their ways, just because they are more mature (as in of age). i do have my own ways of doing many other things as well. y dont people ask me if i want to live with them? they didnt give me a choice in the first place. they didnt even ask if i want to join them. what if my thinking doesnt match theirs? what if living there wasnt my dream as compared to yours?

i just want to turn 21 already. i want to get my own house. i know its not going to be easy, but im working so hard for it. darling baby, please give mummy a bit of time. i need to work now to provide a home called ours. give me a bit more time. please.

current mood: indigestion of thoughts.

finally got time to update.

LOL.

current location: NUH BTS. night shift.

so far still so good. nothing much here.

i wanna go shopping this sunday at bonitochico's warehouse. but im sure it will be so packed.

blah blah.

shit. fax is here. GTG.

feel like blogging all over once again.

working life is totally different. i agree with serene saying that during her graduation days, when everyone is happily taking photo with their smart hats, they all do not know the meaning of working YET.

life is blood bank is hmmmmm. one word: thrilling.

you never know what's going to happen out of your routein work. sometimes, if u have a liver transplant opt going on, you had to issue 60 over pack cells to the same patient. phew. that is, still not forgetting you have all the phone calls to pick up, and other patients requesting for blood products, and other porters waiting to collect blood at your window (and irritatingly, they keep ringing the window bell). i enjoy this work. really do. because somehow, it reflects my character -> impatient.

hahahaha. that's what jamien and sk usually said i was. which is true to a certain extend. lol. because in this line, everything must be FAST FAST FAST! and be accurate.

i did many mistakes these few days. changing the status of the platelets into "IN" status, after shipping out from NUH to CTM. zzzzzzzz. what are u doing zihui?! not only that, changing the FPP status into "IS" status when the FFP pack is still in the freezer. phew. Nissa, im sorry that i need you to settle my mistakes. will apologise to you personally tmr.

other than work, after work, i usually accompany my daughter. she is really becoming more and more adorable. heheheee. mimick things that i do constantly. the joy of being a mother is indeed enjoyable when your kid is still a toddler. listens to whatever you says and follow you whereever you go. hahahhaaa. but living life on our own is indeed tough. i still envy those who still live off their parents. YOU ARE LUCKY. i guess only sk knows the kind of life we are going through.

Friday going for interview tgt with Yinling for permanent job le. hopefully both of us can get it. =D JIA YOU YINLING! see u at work tmr.


signing off....

- tmr will be another day when zombie goes to work.

today is the mark of last day of the weekend. tmr onwards, it will be the same routine again. work work work.. i know a lot of people have been asking me like, NUH not far meh? I kinda think is used to it. hhmmmmm..

tuesday sk coming to micro lab work le. quite happy for him.. cux hope that he not so frustrated about money le. =D

i just hope that i stop making mistakes in work le.. and hope to let u see the real me in work. im not distracted. im just thinking of some important matters.

everyone seems to be going uni except me.. im kinda disappointed. but no choice? results no good is BO BIAN de.

JIA YOU zihui. its not easy.

monday starting work in NUH. got a job in BTS. good. i can get to be with mz and yl. yay.

there are many things that happened in this one week. so much that i think im falling apart. i needed a pillar to lean on. but somehow, that pillar becomes weak. and in turn, the pillar have to depend on me. i felt so lost for the first time, in the mist of the reality crowd.

rmit, queenslands and one more uni (which i forgot) accepted me. i was really overjoyed. but then again, family are tying me down. i cannot go on what i wanted to pursue. felt that my hands and legs are all tied up by all the branches in the forest. it will just take time for me to slowly let go. pursuing my degree is still a must on my list. but i guess it has to be on a later date.

please dont do this to me anymore. i need you to have time management. management of your life. i need you to plan and put things into actions. right now, i just felt so stressed up. i felt that you are like my 2nd kid. a kid that i have to push and push, to rush you to get things done. the things is, i know friends around me are saying that im very impatient. but that's not the point if u are not doing anything about ur career right now.

i need a good break from all these.

how i wish im still a 4 year old kid, looking at the world and be so amazed by things, and unaware of reality around me.